Michael Keanneth Ahrendt

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  1. Crystal Miranda and Family

    You where our family, you where our friend. You helped us create many great memories, ones that I personally will remember forever. You where a great protector, and a great friend. Your daughter will surely follow in your steps. I will miss your presence immensely. I love you Michael, and you will be missed greatly. See you in the end.

  2. janna gibson

    I only wish i had spent more time with michael, he was one of my best friends since we met 14 years ago when he at the time was not in such a good place. It’s good to see that after all the stuff he’s been through and that we all have been through with him, that things had gotten so much better for him. It seemed as though he had finally found his purpose, that was being a dad and he was wonderful with rayna and loved her more than anything as she did him. It was a beautiful thing to see! Not only was he a great dad but a great person and a best friend through good and bad times and sometimes really bad times. I feel lucky to have met him and been a close friend and to have spent alot of time with him. I will always remember him with his sunglasses on and laughing making jokes and some inappropriate but funny comments, listening to his music and just being his funny, friendly, flirty self. It feels as though my life will never be the same, as i’m sure no one else’s will either. I truly loved michael and will remember and miss him everyday! I’m sorry for your loss! It was a true pleasure getting the chance to know all of you and getting a chance to be in michaels life. Through love and time we will all get through this, and he will never be forgotten! take care and please keep in touch -janna-

  3. Thomas Peacock

    I worked with Mike on the graveyard shift at Yellow Cab for nearly six months. We rode the same bus from downtown Denver to work each night. Mike was funny, good-natured. He didn’t let much bother him at work. We all remember Mike, and miss him already.

  4. Rachelle Applewhite

    I loved Michael and will always remember him as my special “kissing cousin.” I felt a special connection with Michael and loved the times we had together. I will cherish the memories I have with him. He always made me smile. I am so proud of the life he was leading and the father that he had become.

  5. Christi Coffman

    Michael’s friendship brings joy to my heart. His kindness will be forever missed. My deepest condolances to his family and to all of his friends in their grief.

  6. MOM

    Michael, I, for one, do not know what to do now that you are gone. What do I do? Who do I talk to? How do I keep going? We are all, as a family, going to do the best we can to raise Rayna as you would have. We might not achieve that completely, but we know you will tell us when we mess up. Papa and I are moving back to Denver soon to help with Rayna – kinda mad at you about that! just wanted you to know where to find us 🙂 Please watch over us and help us understand all this as best we can. Know that we love you and always will.

  7. Becky and Family

    I still cannot believe that you are not here anymore. I am really sorry that we never got to spend time again. I remember Michael as a sweet and kind person. He has the sweetest smile. Everybody will miss you!!! Remember us always.

  8. dad

    HEY SON WHATS UP I FEEL VERY LOST , LIKE MOM SAID WE ARE COMING BACK TO HELP TAKE CARE OF RAYNA AND HELP EVERYONE THROUGH THIS AND MAY RETURN AT A LATER TIME . I WILL MISS BEATING YOU IN POOL (HAHAHA). IF YOUR NOT TO BUSY PLAYING POOL AND POKER KEEP A EYE ON EVERYONE FOR ME. LOVE ALWAYS DAD

  9. steve moore

    michael, i will truely miss having you around.. you not only was a good nephew, but my best friend. we did lots of fun things together, i.e. darts, pool, movies, tennis, poker. now who am i going to lose to in tennis? or pool? or who am i going to beat in darts? or poker? you pushed me to do a live poker tourament and i loved it. i’ll do many more with you by my side telling me how to play a hand.. i’ll miss u alot and one day i’ll join you in heaven to play some more darts,pool,tennis,poker.i know that ray and patti and karen,cj, sarah, jamie,larry, grandma janice,and everyone else will raise rayna to be the best that she can be, just like you would have raised her to be.take care friend i’ll be seeing you soon. love steve moore

  10. Dustin

    Mike, man, it’s been a while. You’ve got a beautiful little girl with an awesome name! Just thinkin back to when we were both 13 hangin out lookin for trouble as 13yo boys do. I remember rockin out to “American Pie” and playing vids. Those were great times!

  11. Tracy Jo Martinez

    Michael, Dude,you are greatly missed. I will be thinking about you as I drive through Delta on my way to Denver! LOL ! You would be proud of our Kirstie Rae she is on the right path now! Getting stronger each day! Love ya cousin

  12. RAE RAE

    Hey there buddy, I love and miss you very much!! I now sit back and wish that we were all closer when i began to grow up!! You were a great person who cared for everybody and everything around you!!! I never got to say good bye but I never will!! All I will say is “See you again another time” Xoxox love you cuz!! ~ur side kick~

  13. Angelo N.

    Michael, 1st off I want to say thank you for Breanna. If it was not for you we would not have her. I also want to thank you for looking over her when it was not possible for me to be around. All though we weren’t the closest the last couple years, I considered you a brother. The world will not be the same place without you. I always heard the good die young. I never believed it. But I guess its true. Rest in peace brother. I love you. I’ll see you when I get there.

  14. aunt christie

    i dont know why it has taken me so long to write this you have been gone now for almost 3 years thats not right you will never be gone to me i know you were not my son by birth but the son of my heart i was so proud of you when you got custody of rayna you were and always will be a great daddy and you were my best friend you were there when i needed yu when dad and ron had to rush me to the hospitaal and you gave up your saterday night to sayand make sure megan was ok and not scared and for that i will always love you i miss you and keep you close to my heart we love and miss you and you ae never verey far from my thoughts thank you for all the love and great times w had your aunt christie

  15. Rayna

    DAD I AM SORRY ABOUT YOUR DEATH JUST LIKE I SAID BEFORE, I LOVE YOU AND I WISH YOU WERE STILL HERE WITH ME BECAUSE I WOULD PROBALY DO ALOT BETTER IN SCHOOL IF I KNEW YOU WERE GOING TO BE THERE WHEN I GOT HOME IT WOULD BE A VERY WARM FEELING. AND I WISH YOUR MOM WAS HELPING WITH ME BUT RIGHT NOW SHE IS IN VAGAS AND WILL BE VISITING IN JUNE OR JULY. I AM EXITED BECAUSE I HAVE NOT SEEN HER IN FOREVER. I WISH YOU COULD WRITE BACK BUT WE ALL KNOW THAT IS INPOSSIBLE AT LEAST I THINK IT IS. WELL I WILL SEE YOU IN ABOUT 60 YEARS.

    LOVE,
    RAYNA

  16. Rayna Ahrendt

    Dear Dad,
    I wish i knew the truth about how you died it would be very helpful because i think you died because of a desies and or because you were not eating that healthy that’s the two things that i was told by auntie(your sister) and c.j both but i don’t know what is true.This is why i wish you were still in my life with me.
    I MISS YOU DADDY and I WISH YOU COULD COME BACK or WRITE BACK.I LOVE YOU DADDY.

  17. Rayna Ahrendt

    HI DAD I MISS YOU AND IT IS LIKE A BLANK SPACE WITH OUT YOU TO BE THERE WHEN I NEED YOU TO BE THERE FOR ME. I HOPE YOU ARE OK AND HAVING A GOOD TIME I WILL BE THERE IN A LONG TIME I HOPE YOU DON’T LEAVE UNTIL I GET THERE TO BE WITH YOU THEN WE CAN LEAVE TOGETHER.

    LOVE,
    RAYNA AHRENDT
    YOUR DAUGHTER

  18. Dominica mejia raynas best friend

    Sorry i mest up on my coment i ment i will make sure raynas ok because i am her best friend and i will talk to her when she needs it the most i mean thats what friend are for right she is a great person i will be in middle school with her i am so happy she is mine to i can make you that promise that i will make sure she is ok

    from raynas best friend Dominica mejia

  19. Rayna Ahrendt

    Dad i wish you were here right know i could tell you what happened to me today army air force came to Eagleton it was awsome well gotta go

    love you Rayna

  20. Dominica Mejia

    Hi I know it has been a while since I have talk to you so I am in middle school now and Rayna is OK just like ragtag promise I made you and I will never break that promise until I die I would not let my best friend dad down so I won’t beak that promise
    From Dominica Mejia Raynas bff

  21. Dominica Mejia

    Hi I know it has been a while since I have talk to you so I am in middle school now and Rayna is OK just like the promise I made you and I will never break that promise until I die I would not let my best friend dad down so I won’t beak that promise
    From Dominica Mejia Raynas bff

  22. Rayna Ahrendt

    Hi dad, I really miss you and I know you can’t come back so that is why I am going to do the best that I, Rayna, can possibly do. Dad I know you can see all the bad stupid things I am doing and I know I need to change and I know that it is going to be hard because I am so used to doing it I love you and want to let you know that I will never forget you.

    Rayna Ahrendt

  23. Rayna Ahrendt

    I need you so much Dad I can not stand this place they are nice and they are the biggest jerks you could ever meet. I don’t get it, I don’t get why people feel the need to bully, and I am a person who let’s little things get to her and plus it is Valentine’s Day.:-\ ????♻

  24. Mom/Nana

    Nine years ago you left us. Our lives have not been the same. You created big holes in all of our heart’s/lifes.

    Love you my son.

    (Tell Rayna we love n miss her too!)

  25. Hi, dad!
    Its your daughter Rayna I am 13 now and I am living with mom and I am trying to keep up. I am making enimies, friends, and boyfriend/girlfriend crushes. I really miss you sometimes i just sit in pain and I wonder if you will ever come back into my life ever again.(knowing thats not possible), and I know you are with me everyday but it is still really hard sometimes. I really love and miss you dad.

  26. Do you ever wish to be alive after your dead?
    Do you wish to have never died?
    Do you wish you were here with me?
    Are you proud of me?
    Are you dissapointed in me?
    Are you dissapointed in any of your Family?

    Dad i feel like none of this bad/negative stuff would have happened to me if you were still here. I dont always do the right thing, i know that but it went wrong in so many different ways. I did wrong so many times, but i am trying to work on it i want to do better i want to make my mom, step-dad, shammy, nana, karen, c.j., sarah, all of my cousins, all of my aunts, all my uncles, my brothers, my sisters, and you pround. I have been struggling bad. I am scared, sad, depressed, lonley, worried, and all these thought’s go through my head and sometimes i wonder how will I ever get through this by myself. And then I think I want help, but no one is helping me, then i get reminded that i am not letting anyone help me. What am i supposed to do when i do not know if i can trust someone? Do i talk to them about something and see if that information remained, so that would mean to start trusting someone i need to open up, i need to give them a chance. I love mom so much, i love Kyle, and Kayden, and Tegan sometimes i get upset with them and get rude and disrespectful, i feel so bad i dont know how to explain to them how sorry i am for everything. I also dont know how to say how much i thank them for everything they have done for me. Dad i respect Karen for trying and Breanna for putting up with me, I forgive breanna and karen, and i appologize to them for the stress i put them through. And Sarah and C.J. I thank them so much for letting me spend time with them and talking to me and always being there to help me and making sure i was ok. And logan, ricky, nathan, shanna, and dezi i thank them all for being nice to me and being better role models then me. I appologize to Ellie for everything, too. She did not deserve anything, and i forgive her for everything, too. I did so many things and i appologized so many times and they forgave me so many times and i took there trust and i betrayed and used it multiple times and i want them to forgive me once more and i want them to understand that i am sorry. This time i really am sorry, i want to see them and make up to them. Dad can you help them to see that i am sorry and that i am working on it and that i need ONE last chance. Please dad you are the only one at this point that could help me until i can do it myself and get some guts to do it. I love you so much dad and i really wish i would have been able to meet yoou truly before you had died.

  27. RaynaAhrendt

    Dad i really am so sad that you have passed away. I really need to talk to you so i will. I feel really bad because i dont feel like i am a real friend to my friends and i never feel like i can give them what they need i hope that they can see that i am trying but i dont know how to do this. Can you help them to see that i am trying, please and thank you. So much Dad, I love you!

  28. EmShay Klein

    Thank you for bringing Rayna into this world. I wish you could see how amazing she is now. Although I couldn’t meet you, I am so glad that you brought such a special thing into this world. Rest in peace.

  29. Dad am I making the right decisions in life? I feel like I am making mistakes after mistakes and I don’t like that feeling. I don’t feel like I am being a loyal enough friend, or saying the right things to them. They always come to me for help but I don’t know how to help them. My friend tried to self-harm like I did, and I don’t agree with it. I do it and it is very bad to do it, and also its a very hard habit to break that’s why even after the twenty promises I have made I am still doing it. I feel like I am a negative influence to people. I am also constantly cursing like its an everyday word, but its not and I know that I would not cuss in front of any teachers or parents, so I know I need to stop. Also I know what the word respect means and at school I apparently don’t know what that word means. I dislike some of my teachers but that does not mean that I should be disrespectful to her/them. Dad I often say “If my dad was here, I would not act the way I do, I would not have ended up in the places that I did end up in” and when I think that I also tell myself it was not only my fault but it was also your side of the family’s fault. And it was not there fault they did not force me to do anything that I did, all they did was punished me. I know this is a lot and I am pretty sure that you don’t read these like I was told, but i guess it was good to get it out, every time i say something to you, it might not make sense but it means some thing in the end of it all. I will always have a point in what I tell you or someone else. Thank you for everything that you did dad, it has helped me so much. I love you!!

  30. Dad I made a promise to stay loyal and i am not keeping up with that promise, my wanna be gf told me if i was loyal and wanted that relationship, to stay single. well i am not doing that because im with someone, and he is nice and funny, and so are all my other crushes, but i love her and she is the best and i dont want to lose her. I need help knowing what is right to do.

  31. Dad i really like this boy but i don’t think he like’s me as much i like him. Do you think that is weird, especially since we are together?? Also my friend’s do you know how i can be a true good friend to them, cuz i feel like i might be the popular one of the group, but i feel like i am a bad friend. I want to be popular, but a good friend. And i don;t think that i am doing a good job with that. an you please help me see if i am doing good and what i need to work on, please.

  32. dad if you close you eyes, what do you see?
    Then tell me why i feel like that is how my life feels.
    When you close your eyes you see nothing, when i open my eyes i see nothing, when i try to search for the good things in my life i can not find it. There is only one true reason tho, and that is because my life is blank, empty, a bunch of nothing.
    Why do I have to feel this way about myself? Why can’t I be grateful for the life I have, it might be empty but it is there right?

  33. Dad what do i do? I get things taken from me for the smallest things. I got my door tooken from me. The reason I get my door tooken away from me is when I slam it shut, well unfortunately my window was open when I was shutting my door so it sounded like I was slamming it and now I don’t have a door, but I also know better than to slam my door because I don’t want mom and Kyle to keep using that as an excuse to take my door, cuz I do know better. Also they took my closet door too, another way since they are adults that they find that they can take advantage of the fact that they are parents. Another thing that they do is they took my phone over a month ago and when I do good I never get it back, they are still taking advantage of the fact that they are adults and I don’t like that, especially since they know that I mainly use my phone to talk to my friends and to check in with them and I talk to them when I need to talk to someone, and I feel like that might be a reason that they are keeping it from me is because I talk to my friends about my problems and when I am feeling down but I don’t talk to mom or Kyle about it. Another thing that they do is they try to force an answer out of me and I feel like if I don’t want to answer something I don’t have to so don’t force it out of me, another thing with that topic is when I don’t know the answer and they try to force it out, sometimes I feel like they say they are listening but they really are not.igtgby

  34. Dad is it me or is it my friend, am I in the wrong or is she in the wrong. I honestly hate the life I have been given. I feel like I am doing everything wrong and I feel like I am just a mistake and that I don’t know how to do anything right. I want to be on everybody’s side of things but I can’t do that because I am always around the one person I disagree with the most, my friend. I disagree with her so much but I am too afraid to say what is on my mind to her because I feel like she might judge me and I hate being judged and I also hate having the thought that I am going to be judged by one of my “friends”, Is it true that I was a mistake not a mistake coming to the world by a mistake thinking I could fit in and be happy….???

  35. Dad what do I do when I feel like I am going to make a mistake but I say I am not going to make a mistake but then I go and I make a really bad mistake, what can I possibly do?? I know I should have stayed with my best friend and right now if I could be given the option to go back with her and her family then I would, Also if I would not have to go back to Southern Peaks if I made that decision, then I would want that to… Dad I care about mom and all of them but I don’t feel cared for and when i was with Aliyah and her family I felt cared for, wanted, loved, and I felt comfortable and I never wanted to leave and never wanted to do bad, I feel like my friendship with her is slowly going away because I never talk to her anymore and/or see her and that is a problem because I would choose her over anyone. Over my mom over other friends, over a boyfriend, I would even pick her over death to go back with you, I love Aliyah and I need to be there to support her but I don’t know how I am going to do that if I am locked into my house and the only way I leave is to go to school and/or to take a walk around the apartment complex, I can’t make any friends because mom don’t like my friends and some times my friends parents don’t like me. I know what I did was wrong but I was scared and I was being dumb. Her mom does not know I was apart of it but she has a suspicion and her guess is right, but I am too afraid to tell her that I was apart of it and that I am sorry because she is not going to let me and Samiya hang out anymore, I don’t know what to do anymore about my friendship stuff, it’s pretty dumb what I go through everyday, but all I get for help is 2 and a half hours of therapy and help from the conseler at school other than that I get to fen for myself…. Yay!!(sarcasm).

  36. Dad, I have this quote that I read and tell myself everyday and I think it is working. Mom and Kyle said they see a change in me this past month!!! And it may sorta be my new meds but I got those like a few days ago, so I know that it is the quote. The quote that is helping me is… If you change the way look at things the things you look at change… Igtg i will talk later… love you

  37. Dad I am going through some really bad depression and I don’t know what to do. I don’t feel comfortable going to class because since I know myself I know that something bad will happen, such as an argument or me being rude to a teacher or all my teachers or even ones who I don’t know but who are redirecting me. I know that I could have the control to stay to myself and not say anything but when I am in this kind of depression stage I don’t really care about much and I usually just say what I want when I want and how I want. And I don’t like doing that but that is what I know how to do. I know this all sounds do dumb but…. never mind I will just stop talking… bye talk to you later….

  38. Dad I am sorta embarrassed to be around my friend she likes me more than a friend like she could have just kept it a secret because it affects how I see her as a friend. Like I always told her I love her but know I feel like it is weird cuz she technically “loves me.” Also I am having really bad flashbacks and I am doing bad in school today. What do you do when IT comes at you like a knife? What do you do if IT never stops? What can I do if IT never lets me open my eyes? Dad I am dead inside I hate good news I hate bad news. I hate the person who hurt me. Hate is a strong word, so I mean dislike but still… I do you expect me to go to bed at night if I can not think if I can not tell myself it is safe it is alright.

  39. Hi dad, I just wanted to check in and tell you that I got in to trouble two nights ago and it was really bad and when I went home yesterday me and mom talked about what happened and she forgave me and then I also told her I was afraid to talk to Kyle, and when he got home he read a letter that I made for him, and requested to talk to me and I said sure and it did go well. And i even admitted to him that I am scared to talk to him. Any who I love you , ttyl.

  40. Dad how do i stop?? I don’t know how to. The more I try and fail the more I feel like I am dumb. I feel like there is a purpose for me to have to struggle this bad but I don’t know what it could possibly be. I need help from myself not 30 other people. No one but myself knows what I need and no one needs to know. No one will no how to help me but me and I am not going to share how that is done. I need time but I am running out of that I need to get my act together before my next court date or I might be leaving my mom that day.

  41. Hey dad its your daughter, i got baptized today at our childhood church.
    I really miss you. I told myself that you would be there in spirit, i did not feel you there but, I know you were their with me.
    Thank you Dad.

    I love you so much,
    Rayna Haley

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Life Stories

Michael Keanneth Ahrendt

Always In Our Hearts

Born:
August 1, 1980

Passed Away:
April 1, 2008

Services
3:00 p.m., Mount Air Christian Church, 14th & Benton, in Lakewood.
 
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Michael has a profound impact on us all, in life and in death. He is fiercely loved and occasionally hated! Michael will never truly be gone: he lives on through our memories and through his beautiful little girl. His heart beats on, it brings life to someone who would have otherwise faced death. He saved 3 people with the gift of his heart and kidneys. He spared 3 families the pain and anguish we all feel. Their elation mustmatch our devastation. He is our brother, our son, our grandson, our uncle, our nephew, our cousin, our friend and above all, to one radiant little girl- he is Daddy. And now, he is also our angel; watching over us all. His laughter echoes out in our own. His words speak out in our voices. He is so much a part of us all and he will never be forgotten. The family is accepting donations. Please send to: Brenda Chavez 2825 S Eaton Way Denver, CO 80227. REST IN PEACE, MICHAEL. WE LOVE YOU!

77 Online Guestbook Entries

  1. Crystal Miranda and Family

    You where our family, you where our friend. You helped us create many great memories, ones that I personally will remember forever. You where a great protector, and a great friend. Your daughter will surely follow in your steps. I will miss your presence immensely. I love you Michael, and you will be missed greatly. See you in the end.

  2. janna gibson

    I only wish i had spent more time with michael, he was one of my best friends since we met 14 years ago when he at the time was not in such a good place. It’s good to see that after all the stuff he’s been through and that we all have been through with him, that things had gotten so much better for him. It seemed as though he had finally found his purpose, that was being a dad and he was wonderful with rayna and loved her more than anything as she did him. It was a beautiful thing to see! Not only was he a great dad but a great person and a best friend through good and bad times and sometimes really bad times. I feel lucky to have met him and been a close friend and to have spent alot of time with him. I will always remember him with his sunglasses on and laughing making jokes and some inappropriate but funny comments, listening to his music and just being his funny, friendly, flirty self. It feels as though my life will never be the same, as i’m sure no one else’s will either. I truly loved michael and will remember and miss him everyday! I’m sorry for your loss! It was a true pleasure getting the chance to know all of you and getting a chance to be in michaels life. Through love and time we will all get through this, and he will never be forgotten! take care and please keep in touch -janna-

  3. Thomas Peacock

    I worked with Mike on the graveyard shift at Yellow Cab for nearly six months. We rode the same bus from downtown Denver to work each night. Mike was funny, good-natured. He didn’t let much bother him at work. We all remember Mike, and miss him already.

  4. Rachelle Applewhite

    I loved Michael and will always remember him as my special “kissing cousin.” I felt a special connection with Michael and loved the times we had together. I will cherish the memories I have with him. He always made me smile. I am so proud of the life he was leading and the father that he had become.

  5. Christi Coffman

    Michael’s friendship brings joy to my heart. His kindness will be forever missed. My deepest condolances to his family and to all of his friends in their grief.

  6. MOM

    Michael, I, for one, do not know what to do now that you are gone. What do I do? Who do I talk to? How do I keep going? We are all, as a family, going to do the best we can to raise Rayna as you would have. We might not achieve that completely, but we know you will tell us when we mess up. Papa and I are moving back to Denver soon to help with Rayna – kinda mad at you about that! just wanted you to know where to find us 🙂 Please watch over us and help us understand all this as best we can. Know that we love you and always will.

  7. Becky and Family

    I still cannot believe that you are not here anymore. I am really sorry that we never got to spend time again. I remember Michael as a sweet and kind person. He has the sweetest smile. Everybody will miss you!!! Remember us always.

  8. dad

    HEY SON WHATS UP I FEEL VERY LOST , LIKE MOM SAID WE ARE COMING BACK TO HELP TAKE CARE OF RAYNA AND HELP EVERYONE THROUGH THIS AND MAY RETURN AT A LATER TIME . I WILL MISS BEATING YOU IN POOL (HAHAHA). IF YOUR NOT TO BUSY PLAYING POOL AND POKER KEEP A EYE ON EVERYONE FOR ME. LOVE ALWAYS DAD

  9. steve moore

    michael, i will truely miss having you around.. you not only was a good nephew, but my best friend. we did lots of fun things together, i.e. darts, pool, movies, tennis, poker. now who am i going to lose to in tennis? or pool? or who am i going to beat in darts? or poker? you pushed me to do a live poker tourament and i loved it. i’ll do many more with you by my side telling me how to play a hand.. i’ll miss u alot and one day i’ll join you in heaven to play some more darts,pool,tennis,poker.i know that ray and patti and karen,cj, sarah, jamie,larry, grandma janice,and everyone else will raise rayna to be the best that she can be, just like you would have raised her to be.take care friend i’ll be seeing you soon. love steve moore

  10. Dustin

    Mike, man, it’s been a while. You’ve got a beautiful little girl with an awesome name! Just thinkin back to when we were both 13 hangin out lookin for trouble as 13yo boys do. I remember rockin out to “American Pie” and playing vids. Those were great times!

  11. Tracy Jo Martinez

    Michael, Dude,you are greatly missed. I will be thinking about you as I drive through Delta on my way to Denver! LOL ! You would be proud of our Kirstie Rae she is on the right path now! Getting stronger each day! Love ya cousin

  12. RAE RAE

    Hey there buddy, I love and miss you very much!! I now sit back and wish that we were all closer when i began to grow up!! You were a great person who cared for everybody and everything around you!!! I never got to say good bye but I never will!! All I will say is “See you again another time” Xoxox love you cuz!! ~ur side kick~

  13. Angelo N.

    Michael, 1st off I want to say thank you for Breanna. If it was not for you we would not have her. I also want to thank you for looking over her when it was not possible for me to be around. All though we weren’t the closest the last couple years, I considered you a brother. The world will not be the same place without you. I always heard the good die young. I never believed it. But I guess its true. Rest in peace brother. I love you. I’ll see you when I get there.

  14. aunt christie

    i dont know why it has taken me so long to write this you have been gone now for almost 3 years thats not right you will never be gone to me i know you were not my son by birth but the son of my heart i was so proud of you when you got custody of rayna you were and always will be a great daddy and you were my best friend you were there when i needed yu when dad and ron had to rush me to the hospitaal and you gave up your saterday night to sayand make sure megan was ok and not scared and for that i will always love you i miss you and keep you close to my heart we love and miss you and you ae never verey far from my thoughts thank you for all the love and great times w had your aunt christie

  15. Rayna

    DAD I AM SORRY ABOUT YOUR DEATH JUST LIKE I SAID BEFORE, I LOVE YOU AND I WISH YOU WERE STILL HERE WITH ME BECAUSE I WOULD PROBALY DO ALOT BETTER IN SCHOOL IF I KNEW YOU WERE GOING TO BE THERE WHEN I GOT HOME IT WOULD BE A VERY WARM FEELING. AND I WISH YOUR MOM WAS HELPING WITH ME BUT RIGHT NOW SHE IS IN VAGAS AND WILL BE VISITING IN JUNE OR JULY. I AM EXITED BECAUSE I HAVE NOT SEEN HER IN FOREVER. I WISH YOU COULD WRITE BACK BUT WE ALL KNOW THAT IS INPOSSIBLE AT LEAST I THINK IT IS. WELL I WILL SEE YOU IN ABOUT 60 YEARS.

    LOVE,
    RAYNA

  16. Rayna Ahrendt

    Dear Dad,
    I wish i knew the truth about how you died it would be very helpful because i think you died because of a desies and or because you were not eating that healthy that’s the two things that i was told by auntie(your sister) and c.j both but i don’t know what is true.This is why i wish you were still in my life with me.
    I MISS YOU DADDY and I WISH YOU COULD COME BACK or WRITE BACK.I LOVE YOU DADDY.

  17. Rayna Ahrendt

    HI DAD I MISS YOU AND IT IS LIKE A BLANK SPACE WITH OUT YOU TO BE THERE WHEN I NEED YOU TO BE THERE FOR ME. I HOPE YOU ARE OK AND HAVING A GOOD TIME I WILL BE THERE IN A LONG TIME I HOPE YOU DON’T LEAVE UNTIL I GET THERE TO BE WITH YOU THEN WE CAN LEAVE TOGETHER.

    LOVE,
    RAYNA AHRENDT
    YOUR DAUGHTER

  18. Dominica mejia raynas best friend

    Sorry i mest up on my coment i ment i will make sure raynas ok because i am her best friend and i will talk to her when she needs it the most i mean thats what friend are for right she is a great person i will be in middle school with her i am so happy she is mine to i can make you that promise that i will make sure she is ok

    from raynas best friend Dominica mejia

  19. Rayna Ahrendt

    Dad i wish you were here right know i could tell you what happened to me today army air force came to Eagleton it was awsome well gotta go

    love you Rayna

  20. Dominica Mejia

    Hi I know it has been a while since I have talk to you so I am in middle school now and Rayna is OK just like ragtag promise I made you and I will never break that promise until I die I would not let my best friend dad down so I won’t beak that promise
    From Dominica Mejia Raynas bff

  21. Dominica Mejia

    Hi I know it has been a while since I have talk to you so I am in middle school now and Rayna is OK just like the promise I made you and I will never break that promise until I die I would not let my best friend dad down so I won’t beak that promise
    From Dominica Mejia Raynas bff

  22. Rayna Ahrendt

    Hi dad, I really miss you and I know you can’t come back so that is why I am going to do the best that I, Rayna, can possibly do. Dad I know you can see all the bad stupid things I am doing and I know I need to change and I know that it is going to be hard because I am so used to doing it I love you and want to let you know that I will never forget you.

    Rayna Ahrendt

  23. Rayna Ahrendt

    I need you so much Dad I can not stand this place they are nice and they are the biggest jerks you could ever meet. I don’t get it, I don’t get why people feel the need to bully, and I am a person who let’s little things get to her and plus it is Valentine’s Day.:-\ ????♻

  24. Mom/Nana

    Nine years ago you left us. Our lives have not been the same. You created big holes in all of our heart’s/lifes.

    Love you my son.

    (Tell Rayna we love n miss her too!)

  25. Hi, dad!
    Its your daughter Rayna I am 13 now and I am living with mom and I am trying to keep up. I am making enimies, friends, and boyfriend/girlfriend crushes. I really miss you sometimes i just sit in pain and I wonder if you will ever come back into my life ever again.(knowing thats not possible), and I know you are with me everyday but it is still really hard sometimes. I really love and miss you dad.

  26. Do you ever wish to be alive after your dead?
    Do you wish to have never died?
    Do you wish you were here with me?
    Are you proud of me?
    Are you dissapointed in me?
    Are you dissapointed in any of your Family?

    Dad i feel like none of this bad/negative stuff would have happened to me if you were still here. I dont always do the right thing, i know that but it went wrong in so many different ways. I did wrong so many times, but i am trying to work on it i want to do better i want to make my mom, step-dad, shammy, nana, karen, c.j., sarah, all of my cousins, all of my aunts, all my uncles, my brothers, my sisters, and you pround. I have been struggling bad. I am scared, sad, depressed, lonley, worried, and all these thought’s go through my head and sometimes i wonder how will I ever get through this by myself. And then I think I want help, but no one is helping me, then i get reminded that i am not letting anyone help me. What am i supposed to do when i do not know if i can trust someone? Do i talk to them about something and see if that information remained, so that would mean to start trusting someone i need to open up, i need to give them a chance. I love mom so much, i love Kyle, and Kayden, and Tegan sometimes i get upset with them and get rude and disrespectful, i feel so bad i dont know how to explain to them how sorry i am for everything. I also dont know how to say how much i thank them for everything they have done for me. Dad i respect Karen for trying and Breanna for putting up with me, I forgive breanna and karen, and i appologize to them for the stress i put them through. And Sarah and C.J. I thank them so much for letting me spend time with them and talking to me and always being there to help me and making sure i was ok. And logan, ricky, nathan, shanna, and dezi i thank them all for being nice to me and being better role models then me. I appologize to Ellie for everything, too. She did not deserve anything, and i forgive her for everything, too. I did so many things and i appologized so many times and they forgave me so many times and i took there trust and i betrayed and used it multiple times and i want them to forgive me once more and i want them to understand that i am sorry. This time i really am sorry, i want to see them and make up to them. Dad can you help them to see that i am sorry and that i am working on it and that i need ONE last chance. Please dad you are the only one at this point that could help me until i can do it myself and get some guts to do it. I love you so much dad and i really wish i would have been able to meet yoou truly before you had died.

  27. RaynaAhrendt

    Dad i really am so sad that you have passed away. I really need to talk to you so i will. I feel really bad because i dont feel like i am a real friend to my friends and i never feel like i can give them what they need i hope that they can see that i am trying but i dont know how to do this. Can you help them to see that i am trying, please and thank you. So much Dad, I love you!

  28. EmShay Klein

    Thank you for bringing Rayna into this world. I wish you could see how amazing she is now. Although I couldn’t meet you, I am so glad that you brought such a special thing into this world. Rest in peace.

  29. Dad am I making the right decisions in life? I feel like I am making mistakes after mistakes and I don’t like that feeling. I don’t feel like I am being a loyal enough friend, or saying the right things to them. They always come to me for help but I don’t know how to help them. My friend tried to self-harm like I did, and I don’t agree with it. I do it and it is very bad to do it, and also its a very hard habit to break that’s why even after the twenty promises I have made I am still doing it. I feel like I am a negative influence to people. I am also constantly cursing like its an everyday word, but its not and I know that I would not cuss in front of any teachers or parents, so I know I need to stop. Also I know what the word respect means and at school I apparently don’t know what that word means. I dislike some of my teachers but that does not mean that I should be disrespectful to her/them. Dad I often say “If my dad was here, I would not act the way I do, I would not have ended up in the places that I did end up in” and when I think that I also tell myself it was not only my fault but it was also your side of the family’s fault. And it was not there fault they did not force me to do anything that I did, all they did was punished me. I know this is a lot and I am pretty sure that you don’t read these like I was told, but i guess it was good to get it out, every time i say something to you, it might not make sense but it means some thing in the end of it all. I will always have a point in what I tell you or someone else. Thank you for everything that you did dad, it has helped me so much. I love you!!

  30. Dad I made a promise to stay loyal and i am not keeping up with that promise, my wanna be gf told me if i was loyal and wanted that relationship, to stay single. well i am not doing that because im with someone, and he is nice and funny, and so are all my other crushes, but i love her and she is the best and i dont want to lose her. I need help knowing what is right to do.

  31. Dad i really like this boy but i don’t think he like’s me as much i like him. Do you think that is weird, especially since we are together?? Also my friend’s do you know how i can be a true good friend to them, cuz i feel like i might be the popular one of the group, but i feel like i am a bad friend. I want to be popular, but a good friend. And i don;t think that i am doing a good job with that. an you please help me see if i am doing good and what i need to work on, please.

  32. dad if you close you eyes, what do you see?
    Then tell me why i feel like that is how my life feels.
    When you close your eyes you see nothing, when i open my eyes i see nothing, when i try to search for the good things in my life i can not find it. There is only one true reason tho, and that is because my life is blank, empty, a bunch of nothing.
    Why do I have to feel this way about myself? Why can’t I be grateful for the life I have, it might be empty but it is there right?

  33. Dad what do i do? I get things taken from me for the smallest things. I got my door tooken from me. The reason I get my door tooken away from me is when I slam it shut, well unfortunately my window was open when I was shutting my door so it sounded like I was slamming it and now I don’t have a door, but I also know better than to slam my door because I don’t want mom and Kyle to keep using that as an excuse to take my door, cuz I do know better. Also they took my closet door too, another way since they are adults that they find that they can take advantage of the fact that they are parents. Another thing that they do is they took my phone over a month ago and when I do good I never get it back, they are still taking advantage of the fact that they are adults and I don’t like that, especially since they know that I mainly use my phone to talk to my friends and to check in with them and I talk to them when I need to talk to someone, and I feel like that might be a reason that they are keeping it from me is because I talk to my friends about my problems and when I am feeling down but I don’t talk to mom or Kyle about it. Another thing that they do is they try to force an answer out of me and I feel like if I don’t want to answer something I don’t have to so don’t force it out of me, another thing with that topic is when I don’t know the answer and they try to force it out, sometimes I feel like they say they are listening but they really are not.igtgby

  34. Dad is it me or is it my friend, am I in the wrong or is she in the wrong. I honestly hate the life I have been given. I feel like I am doing everything wrong and I feel like I am just a mistake and that I don’t know how to do anything right. I want to be on everybody’s side of things but I can’t do that because I am always around the one person I disagree with the most, my friend. I disagree with her so much but I am too afraid to say what is on my mind to her because I feel like she might judge me and I hate being judged and I also hate having the thought that I am going to be judged by one of my “friends”, Is it true that I was a mistake not a mistake coming to the world by a mistake thinking I could fit in and be happy….???

  35. Dad what do I do when I feel like I am going to make a mistake but I say I am not going to make a mistake but then I go and I make a really bad mistake, what can I possibly do?? I know I should have stayed with my best friend and right now if I could be given the option to go back with her and her family then I would, Also if I would not have to go back to Southern Peaks if I made that decision, then I would want that to… Dad I care about mom and all of them but I don’t feel cared for and when i was with Aliyah and her family I felt cared for, wanted, loved, and I felt comfortable and I never wanted to leave and never wanted to do bad, I feel like my friendship with her is slowly going away because I never talk to her anymore and/or see her and that is a problem because I would choose her over anyone. Over my mom over other friends, over a boyfriend, I would even pick her over death to go back with you, I love Aliyah and I need to be there to support her but I don’t know how I am going to do that if I am locked into my house and the only way I leave is to go to school and/or to take a walk around the apartment complex, I can’t make any friends because mom don’t like my friends and some times my friends parents don’t like me. I know what I did was wrong but I was scared and I was being dumb. Her mom does not know I was apart of it but she has a suspicion and her guess is right, but I am too afraid to tell her that I was apart of it and that I am sorry because she is not going to let me and Samiya hang out anymore, I don’t know what to do anymore about my friendship stuff, it’s pretty dumb what I go through everyday, but all I get for help is 2 and a half hours of therapy and help from the conseler at school other than that I get to fen for myself…. Yay!!(sarcasm).

  36. Dad, I have this quote that I read and tell myself everyday and I think it is working. Mom and Kyle said they see a change in me this past month!!! And it may sorta be my new meds but I got those like a few days ago, so I know that it is the quote. The quote that is helping me is… If you change the way look at things the things you look at change… Igtg i will talk later… love you

  37. Dad I am going through some really bad depression and I don’t know what to do. I don’t feel comfortable going to class because since I know myself I know that something bad will happen, such as an argument or me being rude to a teacher or all my teachers or even ones who I don’t know but who are redirecting me. I know that I could have the control to stay to myself and not say anything but when I am in this kind of depression stage I don’t really care about much and I usually just say what I want when I want and how I want. And I don’t like doing that but that is what I know how to do. I know this all sounds do dumb but…. never mind I will just stop talking… bye talk to you later….

  38. Dad I am sorta embarrassed to be around my friend she likes me more than a friend like she could have just kept it a secret because it affects how I see her as a friend. Like I always told her I love her but know I feel like it is weird cuz she technically “loves me.” Also I am having really bad flashbacks and I am doing bad in school today. What do you do when IT comes at you like a knife? What do you do if IT never stops? What can I do if IT never lets me open my eyes? Dad I am dead inside I hate good news I hate bad news. I hate the person who hurt me. Hate is a strong word, so I mean dislike but still… I do you expect me to go to bed at night if I can not think if I can not tell myself it is safe it is alright.

  39. Hi dad, I just wanted to check in and tell you that I got in to trouble two nights ago and it was really bad and when I went home yesterday me and mom talked about what happened and she forgave me and then I also told her I was afraid to talk to Kyle, and when he got home he read a letter that I made for him, and requested to talk to me and I said sure and it did go well. And i even admitted to him that I am scared to talk to him. Any who I love you , ttyl.

  40. Dad how do i stop?? I don’t know how to. The more I try and fail the more I feel like I am dumb. I feel like there is a purpose for me to have to struggle this bad but I don’t know what it could possibly be. I need help from myself not 30 other people. No one but myself knows what I need and no one needs to know. No one will no how to help me but me and I am not going to share how that is done. I need time but I am running out of that I need to get my act together before my next court date or I might be leaving my mom that day.

  41. Hey dad its your daughter, i got baptized today at our childhood church.
    I really miss you. I told myself that you would be there in spirit, i did not feel you there but, I know you were their with me.
    Thank you Dad.

    I love you so much,
    Rayna Haley

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